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SpiriCulArts – Ahh..NotOh

I have no idea of what each picture will look like until I finish it. And even then, I don’t make an effort to name them. I have decided to call this one ‘Ah..NotOh’ to remind me to be more positive.

I am trying to be the sort of person who greets every day with a smile, not a groan and to greet every situation with an “Ah'” ( mind you though, this can get a wee bit tedious when wading through my inbox) but this seems to work. I use to say ‘”Ohh” a lot which was usually followed by “No” which in turn would affect my whole body language to one of despair or anger. I have never been able to start a picture when I am in my ‘ Can’t Be Asked’ mood. Once I hit that road, it’s just a hop, skip and a jump to ” Abandon Hope All Ye That Enter Here” and ” If I’m Going Down, I’m Taking You With Me ” Now I am aware of  why I feel that way I do, that this is due to a shortage of certain chemicals in my brain, I am less critical of myself and my art.

This is my second one of 2012 and is a celebration of colour. I  bought a new pack of Signo Metallic Ink Pens as in my experience, these pens are the best for brightness and colour.And this experience was no mean feat either, I didn’t know that all the art shops in  my local area of Lewisham and Bromley had closed down and I had to travel to the wilds of Old Kent Road.

I tend to work in stages, sometimes shapes just flow onto the page, usually aided by a good supply of Mike ‘n’ Ikes and at other times……nothing. The first image is where I came to a dead  stop and felt that it was complete. After a while though, I couldn’t ignore all that blank space and decided to fill it in.

I cannot find Mike ‘n’ Ike’s anywhere……

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Jamaican English, African Caribbean, Black British……

Sometimes I feel so fed up of wondering what box to tick that I think I should just leave it blank, just for the hell of it. I mean, I was born here in England but if I had a pound for each time I have been asked ” And where do you come from?” I’d be a millionaire by now.  Jamaican English says a lot more than Black British,which sounds like we are all lumped together with no cultural identity. African Caribbean is slightly better as this refers to ancestral links with a continent and a range of islands. Jamaican English defines my heritage and where I was born and is a term I have chosen for myself, not one that has been forced on me.  And don’t even mention Afro-Caribbean, Afro is a hairstyle and as you can see, I do not have an Afro. In fact I have never had one even when it was fashionable, my hair then was too short.
My parents left Jamaica, well , Dad came first and then sent for Mum, with the thought of only staying for a few years. They were young people, full of hope and ambition and with no intention of growing old in a foreign land. And let’s get another thing straight, people from the Caribbean in those times did not come here on a whim, this was in response to a recruitment drive from England. They came prepared to work and boy, did they work AND face unwanted emotions whilst enduring different living conditions.

We Will Do Our Best…….
Large tropical flowers full of rainbow hope
Adorn bodies of treacle chocolate caramel
and forests of black head silk escape from
soft petal bands
snow crisp shirts with razor pleated trousers
compliment defiant felt feathered crowns
eager to show they were ready
Smiling with no fear,
Radiating a perfume of island remembrance
With an aura of excitement
they came
With their youth and passion
Strong backs and sun blessed hearts
They came in their height of fashion
In garments meant for Sunday Best
They left behind
A life well known
They left behind
Miniature versions of themselves
And came with
Communal aspirations of success
To work, to learn, to save
To achieve all this in five years
And then return home again
To say
We came
And we left
We didn’t stay no time
But….
The messages they were given
Were not relayed to the host community
The recruiting officers
Should have been more truthful
Should have been more open
From a small island in the sun
To a larger island in the grey
With
Only countless chimney stacks
spewing dust to darken ancestral kissed skin
so many houses, so little space
but
We Will Do Our Best…..

Imani c 2011

 
My parents left four children behind to pursue this dream and as a result, when they had me, my sister and my brother, we were and still are   referred to as ‘The English Ones’.

Even now I can feel the coldness of that day. I know I don’t look too happy but I was cold and couldn’t see my mum amongst all the other people, I wanted to cry. I loved this dress, so pretty with tiny embroidered  roses and stiff with petesheen petticoats. I didn’t like the cardigan Mum made me put on to hide all this loveliness. I had on a pair of silvery, sparkly shoes that made me feel magical, they were so beautiful. I remember teasing my baby sister the night before the wedding, saying something along the lines of ” I’ve got these and you haven’t” and gloating that she was not a bridesmaid. Mind you, when she was a bridesmaid at another cousin’s wedding a few years later, she didn’t crow like I did, just went about with a large smile on her face. On the big day, she looked really pretty in a golden silk-like full length dress with a large bow at the back, ah…
We lived in a large house in Kennington, that I seem to remember as being full of people all the time. There were several families living there, each family had one room and the staircase seemed to go on forever.  I can still see the yellow table that we had in our room which was by a window.We moved to Lewisham after a while, where my parents had bought a house.It seemed so huge and empty, all this space, all these rooms just for us. And before anyone gets out of their pram to ask how could they afford it, please note that this was due to the Jamaican community saving scheme called Pardnah. For some people saving money in a mattress is fine, but a group of people saving together with regular distribution is even better.
I could never understand why we were called ‘ Coloured’ back then. To my child’s mind, this meant  stripes and swirls of all the colours of the rainbow, not various tones and shades of brown. It Just didn’t make any sense to me. But it wasn’t something I worried about, I was too busy trying to have a good time despite having to do chores and keep an eye on my sister and brother.

I Wish I Could Have Said This Earlier, Dad…..

My Dad always wore a three piece suit, something which I could never understand. Even when summers were actually hot, he always had on his waistcoat and long sleeved shirts and never went out without his hat. He had a fantastic collection of hats,all more or less the same style with different feathers in the headband. And he loved wearing ties, all the colours of the rainbow.  He always called me a shorter version of my name, which sounded like ” Myrrh” I can’t remember him calling me by my full name, unlike my mum.

His cooking was distinctly different from mum’s and when he made soup, his dumplings were absolutely huge! I remember him coming home with bags of broken biscuits and fudge sweets,he always bought home something for us to have as treats. He loved cricket and would hog the television when test matches were being played and loved it when West Indies beat England. I remember one time when Mum was in Jamaica attending a funeral, that he made a mistake ( don’t ask me how) and bought a melon instead of pumpkin to make soup, his face was a picture and his language was far from sweet…

He was always at home after work, never went to the pub or bookies or dance but would insist on dragging us out most Sundays to visit relatives leaving close by. I think he was the only man I knew who didn’t drive and when I got my own car and used to cussing other drivers, he would sit in the front seat and hang on for dear life, but I couldn’t cuss with him there as he would be really shocked that I knew such words.  We would have long arguments that started out as gentle talks, getting louder and louder until mum told both of us to calm down. My parents were known throughout the area as when he Joined The Ancestors, mum said that she had been told at Lewisham Market that ‘ A tall man with a short wife had passed away’ There were so many family members in the same cemetery, that people said that they would all be having a party once us mourners had left. I miss our talks but I find that I am using some of his choice phrases when I see the price of food in supermarkets!

Although you may think I do not care

know that I care for you

Although you may think I do not love

know that I love you

I know that I have never sat

and reasoned long with you

please forgive me for my lack

of whatever feeling to you is due

I can only imagine what it was like

to come so far and leave

whatever happiness there was at home

that island in the Caribbean Sea

to seek new work, to find a future

as you and others had been told

to journey so great a distance

for this reality to come true to unfold

Waiting patiently and working so hard

feeling hatred from your fellow man

just because your skin was a different shade from them

Sticking it out, waiting in vain

As months drifted  into years

seeing your youth and your strength gradually disappear

being called an immigrant, an ethnic minority

coming from a land where you where in the majority

even though you were a law abiding citizen

of this so called humane society

I wish I could talk to you

tell you that I respect you

and that I am grateful for all that you have achieved

as I am proud to be continuing this line

of Jamaican Ancestry

I know that sometimes you did not approve

of the actions I have taken

but understand that at the time

I thought i could not be mistaken

and would have to pay in the future

for my youthful follies

This reasoning is for you

My Father

This love is from

A Thankful Daughter.

Thanks, Dad.

Imani c 2012

Sunglasses and Brass Monkey Weather

Thursday 1st March was really warm, surprise, surprise  This must be the start of the warm weather we were promised, I thought,so I wore my sunglasses to Lewisham Shopping Centre.  People were smiling and chatting, some brave souls had thrown caution to to the wind and were displaying acres of skin which really should have been kept under cover. I felt so warn that I was thinking I might have to break out a skirt for Friday as my legs have not seen the light of day since last year. Even my house felt so hot that I had to turn the heating down. And then Friday arrived with a blanket of fog and it was Brass Monkey weather, bitterly  cold and grey, determined to wipe out any memory of Thursday. Talk about a shock to the system,you never know where you are with our weather, you’ve just got to enjoy the good bits and plow on through the bad bits.

Cornmill Gardens, Lewisham

Dark Nights, Bright Thoughts1

I know this may sound a bit odd, but how would you feel about being able to take a walk in your local park, at night?

Now before you all start shrieking stuff like ‘ Are you mad? ‘ or ‘Muggers paradise’ I would only do this if the park was fully staffed and well lit. I think this would be a great way of meeting up and doing things ( all bushes and trees would be fitted with really bright lights) like jogging, walking or just taking in the scenery. On cool summer nights  ( never say hot in England as one hot day means a heatwave) cultural concerts could be held.  I live in a area which is well served by public transport and there at least two parks within walking distance. Just a thought I wanted to share with you all .I was walking back from one my trips to a let night shop to recharge my gas card, when this idea came to me. I’m no stranger to being on the streets at certain times of the night ( and you can get your head out of the gutter for thinking anything kinky) thanks to the wonder of prepayment for gas and eletric. I’m always amazed at the amount of people who are out and about , with a few waiting for an all night bus and the whole scene is so different from the hectic noise a few hours earlier.

Day light is not around a lot and the sun only makes a guest appearance now and again. The days can seem a bit grey like the sun doesn’t want to hang around too long. Afternoons don’t even make it to the evening as darkness starts looming from 3pm onwards.The shops all have various degrees of lighting, some have a gentle sort of soothing light, whilst others are relentless with a blinding light which shows up every worn out facial lines and slightly knackered clothing. I know which shops to go in during my shopping trips to Lewisham, which I know like the back of my hand as I have lived here most of my life.